gathering,making, thoughts

the repairs on the car were far more expensive than the economy of this crisis hit storyteller could absorb, so said storyteller decided to make things and sell in a small bazaar type market

it was a bit like a whatif, as in whatif I do it and see what it's like

it has turned out to be a huge whatif, pushing me to think and do

I started by making little pouches from clothes I use in the koutsouna dollmaking with children

I'm very quickly learning about different weaves, knits, yarns etc and their conduct when forced or coaxed to interact with each other

at the same time I'm learning about design, making decisions, and about which aspect of making is more interesting to me and what gives me most pleasure.

and, of course, about discipline, focus, and organisation

I can't, in this context, follow all the ideas that come to me while considering a piece just to see what it will become

so, for the first time i made a "thought catching" journal, and it is becoming very important

also, at every step, I see the need to simplify and be effective

also how to plan realistically about how much time I need for each item
i do like what I'm making, but not as much as how it is teaching me about myself, about cloth, about reality

when I looked at one of the little pouches I made and realised that I found it cute, intelligent, but a bit "far away" I had a rethink

and it dawned on me that I do have lovely cloths that are unique and precious.

so out came the boxes of dyed pieces of sheets, pillowcases and canvas that had been resting in the dark

they were washed to become softer, hung in glorious sunlight to be blessed
I must admit i really enjoy lookingat, smelling and feeling this cloth
everything became much simpler. the design is a simple lined envelope pouch which folds upon itself. I'll show you tomorrow, I don't have daylight pictures. they are quick to make, and my heart sings when I look at them and when I hold them.

these are examples of the other style, I do like them, but they need a lot done to them, many desisions taken to get them to a state where they will satisfy me.

they say it will snow tomorrow so I went on small gathering expedition, to meet the short autumn

one of the best things that have come out of the market adventure is that I reorganised a part of my room to let the light in and become a working space. now, when my glance goes that way, for some reason it makes me think of Grace. maybe it is the colours and the cacti and what i think new mexico is like..it is a weird time, fluctuating, changing, i can't quite describe in words

i think I am moving more firmly on this path that opened with listening to the flowers talk

but it feels like a cusp, a moment when all directions are open

maybe life is like that anyway

and magic is always here

grace, grace of windthread is sending me a cloth that she found in a thrift shop, a cloth that made my heart bump when I first saw it in a post

and it is coming from socorro

oh

I think these are practising how to look like flowers