once I was commenting to a friend about my messy home, telling her that my mother says I could do with some obsessive compulsion
and she said that of course I am obsessive-compulsive, a musician who has practised scales for hours daily can't not be...
and she set me free!
since then I have been happily exploring that side of me, making things with no guilt, things that need extra care, and lots of small repetitive actions,
I was able to recognise that getting things "just so" can have different forms
sorting out intersections of seams and cutting up after to make more intersections can be very enjoyable
and I love the "deconstructed- reconstructed" result, yes it can lead me somewhere,
all my thanks to jude hill for her online classes, and the "patchwork beasts", for being a generous and gentle guide into totally unknown territory
the house is still a mess, clothes, cloths, scraps all in piles !
maybe a storm inside would do the job